A bad day to be happy

She was ok in the morning but all of a sudden, her mood changed. She is angry, her mind is disturbed and she dont want to talk about it with me.

Part of me wanna leave her alone and let her calm down by herself. The other part of me feel so frustrated, so depressed and so useless of not be able to help her, to consult her. I loved her so much that I actually cry. Cried for not be able to be beside her when she is sad. I dont want her to feel sad anymore. I promised myself I'll make sure she will never ever feel sad again. She suffered so much already in her life...

She shutting me out of her life. Maybe, I dont know. There are so much uncertainties in this relationship. Heck, I dont even know if she is actually have any feelings for me. I really dont know...

That's why my heart is so full of sadness. I feed on them. I live on them. And people ask me why i look pale and sad. I'm the sadness. Period.